03-09-2004, 03:02 AM
Bismillah
As salam alaikum, ukhti Carol.
I am a stubborn man. I got it from my parents. This is the reason why they pretty much knew that they could not change my mind about Islam.
After I was confirmed at age fourteen, I asked my mother a couple of questions. "Mom, does this now mean that I am an adult in the eyes of the church?"
"Yes."
"So any sin that I earn is my sin alone to bear?"
"Yes."
"I am not going to church anymore."
"You're grounded."
Each weekend she would ground me for not going to church. It got to the point where I would tell her ahead of time that I was not going to church that Sunday so she could pre-ground me for that weekend. I stuck by my beliefs though and eventually she gave up trying.
Stick to what you know to be the Truth and they will eventually give up trying to change you. It will be a battle. I am not saying that it won't but Allah is on your side and there is nothing you can't do with Him Guiding you.
When I converted, Shaytan would whisper for me to keep my religion secret or not to pray where nonmuslims could see me. The reason for this is because he knows how powerful Islam is. He knows that by your example others may be brought to the Light of Islam. At the very least my family members (all christian, mostly catholic), have a new attitude about Islam. They disregard some of the horrible generalizations that are made because they know me and can see the character that I exude.
The longer you hide your beautiful belief, the more shaytan wins. You have nothing to be ashamed of or to worry about. You have made the best choice that you will ever make. I NEVER EVER regret becoming a muslim even after going through some of the trials of life. All that I endure for the sake of Allah will be rewarded when it really matters. Life is truly but a dream. When you wake up in the afterlife, you will be so greatly thankful that you decided to be a beacon of Truth for others.
If there is anything, that you want to ask me about please feel free. I have been through alot, as we all have, so the more specific the question the better details I can supply. I am thankful to Allah for bringing you to Islam. Alhamdulillah. Astaghfirullah for anything that I have said that is wrong or brings others further from the Truth. Alhamdulillah if I have said anything that brings anyone closer to Allah. It is all due to His Perfection, Mercy, and Blessings.
As salam alaikum wa rahmatullahi wa barakatu