11-23-2003, 09:57 PM
alsalaam alikom ,
may Allah bring you peace and blessing to your heart. i was so touched to see that my letter was put on the board for someone to benifit from this, i cried so much when i was sent the copy.
to imagine i could ever inspire even a soul is beyond my thinking. but i see Allah in my heart so clear. and i see this simple ways of saying about Allah cause it is as simple as i child can understand. and that is where i always want to be, i come to allah as a simple child, and to always learn, and to be humble. I HAD TO LEARN THIS, and believe me , being american alone is hard to be humble, cause of the way we were raised, to be independant and giving trust to some one , that was very hard. then when i become muslim. i tell you the looks i was getting, i could have blown everyone away when they heard i was muslim,
i will tell you i am PROUD TO BE MUSLIM, and i do not care who knows my name. when i get to heaven its not like i can hide it, you know!!! lollllllllll the whole world will be there to know if i was bad or good. but being muslim and being an american, well shall we say it is a trying position to be in,
every christian out there wants to convert me , back to christian. and you know i would not have it back , even if they melted that religion and poured it on me............ i told one lady......... jesus would not do what these christian to day are doing. and i know this cause that is why i ran for my life from that.
i became hungry for something i could not find anywhere. i thought i was looking for love. but you know there is nothing that can replace the love you have from God. cause when you have it. and then you don't have it.or you do not feel it, cause you are drowning in the pit of sin, you are starved to death for it. and you are up rooted in your whole life, cause the truth is you will be never satisfied til you are commoted to Allah , living the right ways. Allah said be in the world not of the world. this is where the true love is.
you know something else. i never knew i listened as much about the bible til i become muslim, it seem i could tell you things about what the bible said , verse's what the koran says. and when the christians wantt o attack me on these things, i found out there are a lot of christian that do not know the bible as well as they think, and i have found that a lot of them say they are christians and are not. but you know i do not wantto be like this, when some one asked me, about islam i want to know everything.
, i do not want to just think i know cause i have learned this , we have to walk everyday with the amour of islam on our back at all time. and what i mean by saying this , is we have to know truth about islam everything, cause we are always asked some people do not want to hear that, but its true.
even when people think they are in relationships. they blame this and that on others. that is when they need to take a look at them selves from the soul. you can not distore the soul, this comes from God.
if you take care of ur soul, Allah will take care of u. I BELIEVE IN ISLAM , I BELIEVE IN ALLAH. AS ONE GOD. AND THEIR IS ONLY ONE LOVE , AND FOR ME THAT IS ALLAH, i hear all the time what people say about what jesus said.
JESUS SAID , DO NOT WORSHIP ME , BUT WORSHIP GOD.
AND IT IS IN THE BIBLE THAT JESUS SAID , FATHER WHY THAT THOU FOR SAKEN ME.
IF THE CHRISTIANS THINK JESUS IS GOD, THE WHY DOES HE TALK TO HIIMSELF. why did he said father for give them for they do not know, this is in the bible,
I HAD QUESTION TO WHY THE CHRISTIAN DO NOT HAVE ANSWERS TO MY QUESTIONS . WHEN I ASK THEM. INSTEAD THEY TWIST THE STORY TO FIT THE ISSUES.
IF THEY BELIEVE IN THE COMMANDMENTS. THEN WHY DO THEY NOT BELIEVE WE HAVE ONLY ONE GOD,
IN THE COMMANDMENT, IT SAID
THOU SHALT NOT HAVE ANY OTHER GOD BEFORE ME,
IT ALSO SAID THOUS SHALT HAVE NO ENGRAVEN IMAGES
BY WORSHIPPING OTHER THINGS IN THEIR LIFE.
THEY ARE USED TO DOING WHAT OTHERS DO, AND THINK , IF THEY ARE IN A CROWD IT OK, CAUSE SO AND SO DID THIS. WELL ITS NOT RIGHT........
IM SORRY IF PEOPLE GET ATTITUDES ABOUT IT, BUT ITS BEST TO GET THAT ATTIUTUDE NOW THEN WAIT TIL ITS TO LATE. AND YOUR IN HELL FIRE.
FORGIVE ME OH ALLAH !! BUT I DO NOT SEE THESE CHRISTIAN COVER THEM SELVES , AND THEY DRINK AND PARTY , AND WOMENIZE AND WOMEN HANG WITH MEN........ TELL ME WHERE THIS IS HOLY.BIBLE SAY THESE THINGS. THE BIBLE SAID PROSTITUES WEAR MAKE UP AND BEAR THEIR BODIES AND LAY WITH MEN. AND MEN WITH MEN AND WOMEN WITH WOMEN.
AND THEN THEY TURN AND SAY THEY ARE CHRISTIAN. PLEASE TELL ME WHERE IS THIS RIGHT.
....... I SPEAK FROM EXPERIENCE. WHEN I SAY I WENT FROM CHURCH TO CHURCH LOOKING FOR ANSWERS. AND I NEVER WAS SATISFIED. I WAS MARRIED TO A PREACHER SON, HE WAS BAD, I WILL NOT SAY TO WHAT HE DID, BUT THEY WERE NOT GOOD. AND WHEN I BECOME
MUSLIM, I FOUND OUT MUSLIM WOMEN CANNOT BE MARRIED TO CHRISTIAN WOMEN. SO I DIVORCED HIM.. OOHH!!! SEE THERE WAS BLESSING IN THIS AFTER ALL...LOLLL
I WOULD NEVER BE A CHRISTIAN AGAIN, CAUSE IT IS SOMETHING MADE UP IN THE MINDS OF THESE PEOPLE. DO YOU THINK THEY WOMEN OF JESUS DAY WOULD GO WITH MAKEUP , AND SHORT SKIRTS AND SHOWING THERE BREAST.SMOKING CIGARETTES ACTING LIKE MEN ?? . I THINK NOT.........
GOD SAYS, I AM THE BEGINNING AND THE END. AND I AM THE SAME TODAY AS I WAS YESTERDAY AS I WILL BE TOMORROW.......
I QUOTE THIS FROM THE BIBLE. gOD LAWS DOES NOT CHANGE , THE PEOPLE CHANGE THEM WITH THEIR SINFUL WAYS.
SO THINK ABOUT YOUR SOULS, CAUSE TODAY WE LIVE IN THE SHORT DAYS. AND WE DO NOT HAVE MUCH TIME. REPENT AND TURN TO ALLAH. FOR HE WILL COME QUICKLY!!! HIS DAYS ARE OUR YEARS, AND HIS MOMENTS ARE OUR DAYS.
THIS IS WHY I WAS SEARCHING FOR MORE FROM GOD, I KNEW IN MY HEART THAT THERE WAS MORE TO GOING TO HEAVEN THEN WHAT WAS TAUGHT IN THE CHURCHES.
AND I KNEW WHEN I FOUND ISLAM , I BEGAN TO FEEL ALIVE FOR FIRST TIME IN MY LIFE. I WAS FREEEE!!!!!!!
ITS NOT FOR THE PEOPLE T,HAT I GO TO MASJID. CAUSE I AM ALONE. I GO TO MASJID ON FRIDAYS , BUT I LIVE ONE HOUR FROM CLOSEST MASJID , BUT I DO GO. AND I WORK FOR HEALTH CARE. SO I HAVE A FULL LIFE,
IM THE ONLY ONE IN MY FAMILY WHICH IS MUSLIM, ALL MY PEOPLE ARE AS COUNTRY AS YOU CAN GET, THEY ARE RED NECK HILLBILLYS FROM TENNESSEE. AND I THINK I THROWED THEM IN SHOCK WHEN I DID BECOME MUSLIM / MY MOTHER SAID TO HER PREACHER , SHE THOUGHT I WAS DOING SOMETHING WRONG. AFTER MY MOTHER DIED . THE CHURCH AGAIN , TRIED TO GET ME TO COME BACK TO CHURCH, I JUST LAUGHED
,BUT THERE IS ONE THING I WILL SEPARTATE MYSELF FROM EVERYTHING, AND THAT IS FOR GOD, I BELIEVE IN THE AFTER LIFE. AND I WANT TO LIVE TO BE WITH ALLAH. AND I CARE WHERE MY SOUL WILL BE GOING,, AND I DO NOT WANT TO BE OLD AND DISABLE, AND NOT KNOW THE LOVE OF THE TRUE CREATOR...
WHEN I WAS TOLD ABOUT ISLAM FROM A MAN FROM PAKISTAN, AS HE HAD CANCER, HE TOLD ME OF ISLAM. I WAS SO NIEVE, I HAD NEVER HEAR OF THIS RELIGION BEFORE THIS. BUT AS HE TOLD ME , ..........I JUST MELTED, I CRIED, CAUSE IT WAS HITTING MY HEART SO HARD!!!
AS TAHIR SAID THIS IS WHAT WE BELIEVE, I SAID THIS IS ME, THIS IS MEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!
THIS IS WHAT I HAVE BEEN LOOKING FOR ALL MY LIFE!!! , AND HE TOLD ME YOU CAN'T JANNAH!!! AND I SAID WHY NOT!!! HE SAID IT A WAY OF LIFE. ITS NOT LIKE THE CHRISTIAN RELIGION<<<<<<< OHH PRAISE BE TO ALLAH, I CALLED THE MASJID AS FAST AS I COULD, AND I WENT TO THE ISLAMIC SCHOOL TO FIND THE IMAM, AND THAT DAY OF FEB. 4, 2001 I TOOK SHAHADA. AND I WALKED IN THERE ON MY OWN, AND I HAVE BEEN ON MY OWN, AND WHAT I HAVE LEARN, IT HAS BEEN ON MY OWN, I HAVE NO MORE SO CALLED FRIENDS ANYMORE,
AND AS TIME HAS PAST, MY FAMILY HAS COME TO EXCEPT IT, BUT THEY DO NOT SAY ANYTHING, THEY JUST KNOW ITS WHAT I WANT, I HAVE TO SAY IT LIKE THIS TO MY GROWN CHILDREN.
I AM LIKE A PERSON ADDICTED TO A SUBSTANCE THAT I CANNOT DO WITHOUT, AND ALLAH IS MY ADDICTION, I CAN NOT SURVIVE WITH OUT HIM, AND IF NEED TO BE , I WILL WALK AWAY FROM ANYONE WHO TRYS TO FIGHT ME OVER IT, I NEED THE SALVATION OF ALLAH . WORLDLY THING WILL PASS, BUT THEY SOUL WILL BE LEFT BEHIND. AFTER THIS THEY NEVER SAID NOTHING.
O'ALLAH!!!! PRAY THAT WE ALL STAY STRONG MUSLIMS>> AND BE PROUD WE STAND FOR ALLAH.
YOU KNOW I AM LEGALLY JANNAH, I WENT TO COURT AND HAD MY NAME CHANGED TO JANNAH, CAUSE WHEN I BECOME MUSLIM , I WAS GAVE ME THIS NAME. HE SAID WHAT DOES YOUR FAMILY CALL YOU. I SAID JANNIE, HE SAID TODAY YOU ARE NEW, EVERTHING CLEAN......... I WILL CALL YOU JANNAH !! SO I HAD BEEN CALLED THIS SO MUCH I FELT THIS FELT RIGHT, SO I CHANGED IT TO MY MUSLIM NAME, AND EVEN MY BIRTH CERTIFICATE IS CHANGED. IM PROUD IM MUSLIM, MASHA'ALLAH I THINK ALLAH HAD A PLAN , FOR ME ALL ALONG , I WAS MEANTTO BE MUSLIM!!!
ALHAMDILLAH
YES SAY MY NAME ,PLEASE!!! FOR I AM JANNAH, AND EVERY TIME I SEE MY NAME I AM REMINDED OF WHERE IM GOING, WHO I AM, WHAT I HAVE BECOME, AND WHY IM HERE, IM MUSLIM, AND I COME FROM THE PIT OF DARKNESS, AND I FOUND THE REAL RELIGION OF GOD,
MY SOUL SURENDERS TOTALL TO MY ALLAH, SUBHANNALLAH!!!!
I SEEK REFUGDE IN GOD FROM THE TRAILS AND THE TOREMENT FROM HELL FIRE AND FROM THE EVILS OF WEALTH AND POVERTY, OF THIS WORLD.
AMEEN,AMEEN, AMEEN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
UR SISTER IN ISLAM
JANNAH
