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As salam alaikum brother
I hear what you are saying because I have gone through the same. Do NOT do what your mind is telling you. The help you need I may be able to give through personal experience. Allah wills us to go through experiences Insha'Allah to help others when the time comes.
Let me know.
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Wassalam...Alhamdulillah, I'm in understan now. Allah is ghafururrahim. I pray to Allah and say, My Allah I dont know anythink, I give me to You, so Do what is best for me.......
You dont know how is hard for me to life with some feelings go in my mind.. But Jazzakallahu Khayran for your interest to my worry..My Allah inshaallah remove your worry in yawmul qiyamah ...Wassalam...TakeCare
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Mash a Allah you reached a very good conclusion, really sobhan Allah this is the best way to handle difficulties in general is just to turn it totally to Allah, increase dhikr (remembrance of Allah) for Allah said in a hadeeth Qodsi one who is busy reading my Quran and making rememberance shall receive better than one who makes dua. So just increase the dhikr brother, like sobhan Allah, walhamdulelah, wa la ilaha ila Allah, wa Allah u Akbar wa la hawla wala qowata ila billah. Use these a lot brother a lot all the time, just don't stop.
also use the dua i gave here :
ya rubna lakal hamd waelaykal moshtaka wantalmosta`an wala hawla walaqowata ila billah aa`aleyeel azeem
Oh our Lord to you is the praise and gratitude, to You is the complain, and You are the supporter and Helper and no power or mighty except Yours.
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My brother I do know how hard it is to live with such thoughts going through your head. I have had to live with the same thing my whole life. I do not like to talk about this but if it will help you then Alhamdulillah.
Ever since I can remember, even as a child, I have prayed for death. The deep sorrow and constant self hatred consumed my every being. Not a day would go by that I would not think of death and yearn for it. The thoughts in my head were a tape recorder playing the same thing over and over, saying, "You are worthless. No one cares for you. You are stupid and ugly. You are better off dead. Kill yourself. Do it. Do it! DO IT!"
These thoughts can be so overwhelming and can drain every bit of energy from you. They can leave you feeling like doing nothing but lay around feeling sorry for yourself.
I finally could not take it any more. I had to seek help as you have done, mash'Allah. The level of self hatred and despair that I had required professional help. I was very reluctant to get it because in America it seems as everyone is over medicated.
When I finally went to a doctor and got help, I was diagnosed with chronic depression, not the kind where you feel bad for a couple of weeks. That is just a part of life. But I never felt any joy or happiness due to a chemical imbalance in my brain.
I also had to stop letting my thoughts control my life. You have to ask the help of Allah to help rid you of these. Tell them to shut up and that they are not true. It sounds funny but it helped me shut off the destructive tape recorder in my head.
I am not telling you to get on medication but I am saying that you have to take steps to get better.
I remember a hadith that goes (Allah forgive me for the lack of exact wording):
A man was late to prayer at the mosque so he jumped off his camel and ran inside. After the prayer the man discovered that his camel had run off. The man went to Rasul-Ullah and said, "Oh Messenger of Allah, I was runnning late for prayer and asked Allah to take care of my camel and the camel ran off anyway." The Messenger of Allah asked, "Did you tie up your camel?" The man replied in the negative. Rasul-Ullah said, "First tie up your camels then ask Allah to protect them."
We as muslims and as an ummah must take the necessary steps to achieve our goals. We cannot sit around and pray for Allah to help us and not doing anything at all. The Companions did not sit in Medina and wait for Allah to conquer Arabia for them. This is the actions of the Jews in the Qur'an when they were commanded to fight and their reply was for God and Musa to go fight while they wait.
My brother if you truly want to stop feeling this way, you must take some steps also. Remember every step you take towards Allah, He takes two towards you. I cannot think of anything better for you to do right now then get past these feelings so you can worship Allah and fulfill your obligations as a muslim to the best of your ability.
Astafirghullah if I have taken too much space. Insha' Allah the pain that I have gone through can help you ease your's. May Allah forgive me. Any benefit from this is from Allah and all the faults are from myself. Astafirhgullah. Alhamdulillah.
Jazak Allah
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Wa AlaikumSalam. br/sis. Dan..
My is different as yours. I was on islamicchatroom before 6 years ago. And I have got started a deal against me. Alhamdulillah I know who are they. Because Allah Azezul Haqiim dont let do unjustly thinks against a muslim.
I was very healthfull and was happy, I dont had such so thoughts an now. But after I was on thischatroom my life is totaly changed. I was damaged there and offenden and people has take checkup aginst me who I can be, like jew, shia, crist or racist or so. These phase I was offended and forced with some thinks. My life getting upset there with these specific muslims. I'm sure some of members on this boar know them, but I will wirte that all in my story and I have beginn. Because I asked so much and plesed them to reply me about my some thinks in my mind to clear but they still ignore me and still lie against me also for now.
When I finish my story there will everyone cry for me and feel sorry for me besides them. All human who has a pit in their heart will cry for me ..Today I break my job for my wife she is getting also sickness since I suffered...
I'm vistim of some specific muslims, They are happy now and lucky with their family but I'm and so my family is ruined and damaged.
They cant image how but they will know how...I'm sure this one sister read this, who asked me for mercy, she want mercy from me and still hidden self?
I asked and please for sake of Allah to help and explain somethinks, you know da, FOR SAKE OF ALLAH, i said this.. But they dont believe for this, they will not ruin their existenz in world and in internet world and so ignore me and let me in falling... But Allah azezol hakeem dont will look their islamicworks over me, because The Allah I know is Al Adl, He care to madzlooms HE care who cry to him and beig to him...He know that I'm vicitm unjustly... I will and wish from Allah he take my life soon also my wifes too... I will finish my story with my real anme and others real name too, because I'm not a idiot or some who are ignored about thinks what they add me for a pain and suffer, when they ignore me, so I'll explain myself in public. I dont care aynthink in this world, for me is it so, like the world is burning but I dont care...What is this world just for few days are we here... Yes this will be a story about a muslim and his family how is getting down with their sayings and doings..You know I would do suicide. Death was only 3 seconds away from me... My story will make a sense, I dont care because when I die so every1 will forget me and I'm by Allah swt and will judge with HIS judge...
I take medicine since I'm ruined and damaged of these muslims and I still visit for it for medical help..There is no doctor can help me no one.. But nothing help me and it cant help me until one of them clear me... I never never and never trust to any1. and I dont believe that we muslims love eachother ist only in words but not in action if so I would get any reply and help of them. They only care own nafs and existence and what is with me as muslim not important.. For me is everyday same, no make any different, is, monday, ramadan, eid or winter, summer. I'm always sad and no a day is differented for me now..
May you can say to me I'm pranoia or such so like they called me so and this also sad because they build me so and then say I'm paranoi, this is a shame for them...I have got my lesson from them. and pay with my life... This will also my last call for this one who asked me A MERCY, and no one of them should think I will hidden some doings of me, no everythink I'll write whole details. I know where is there are on internet, with another nicks and keep webpages and boards....My mind is not changing about who is who.still i just say ok to them...Wassalamu Alaikum....
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