Jazzakallakhayr. First, it is anybody or somebody its not the point.
I m brother. A brother, muslim brother, married and without child.
All what I will is, not this world. I m disappointed of muslims. I put this and this is true. all of them should read my message and know and so we pay us eachother in yawmulqiyamah.
I read quran, I know ayahs. I read hadith and that make me more unwishfull for this world.
Today, is another day, for me, I lose more mood for life.
I dont ask all my questions. Because I dont get right answer what helps me.
I m sory, you dont help me anyway. You told me, what I knew, you told me what I hear so often. I also heard similar words of them who is responsible.
The suggest, I should call a revert sister via phone and send her via mail adult thinks and annoy her. and this is very bad suggest to me. A sister, married sister, i realy respected her with her knowledge, ask me Do I like her. even I m married and she too, and I send so much greating to her husband. Did you called a jew in chat and in islamic forum a jew? Did someone put to your thread offended thinks? And got forced to be killed from some1es fiance?
This is a sample of whole thinks what I got. You dont know everythink.
Do you have islamic feelings? Can you image my soul sitiation after so much offended thinks?. This is still in me.
I have to live with these thoughts and these thoughts kill me anyday.
The different is, when I read quran and some hadith what is similar to my happen so I feel me more to death and ackheraat and lose my lifelust. Did you know I dont have anymore dawah strive? I lose it.
Its is realy sad, I trusted to them, I thought never I could be damaged by them.
When I lose my wife, then it is everythink finished...
I remember some1es words to me, we gave you a lection. Yes. Lection. Allah swt will give a lection surely too. But Allah swt s lection better and absolut powerfull.
In short words, I have got a deal against me, over them, I thought they love me for sake of Allah swt. But they only talk and send me mails to deal against me and spy me... Was this all for sake of Allah swt. I feel me safe by nonislamic forums.
No one is better than Allah swt.
I m sure and i know, I m also be watched here, what I put or so, from them who know me earlier time. They still near to me. Also via messenger but i m blocked so i cant see them online but they mee. Allah azza wa jalla jalaluhu reward them who spy me, and get information about me. There is not much to talk. They are blind for now and they have rest now in this dunia... I find a way how to make me bussy with life. Good or bad anyway.
Jazzakallahukhayr...wassalam...