07-01-2004, 01:48 AM
As'salamu Alaikum Wa Rahmatullahi Wa Barakatu
May everyone read this in good health and spirit, Insha'Allah.
Well, the entire purpose of this message is to communicate to others my situation. Only this year have I developed a passion and interest for learning about Islam. I joined a club in school about Islam and I have a few friends who are of the Muslim faith, alhamdulillah. I've visited the masjid and I've read tons about Islam...and so, my parents found out about my interest. They gave me a speech on how I am being brainwashed and how they completely disaprove Islam. You see, I am Cuban and it's very odd for my parents to understand a religion such as Islam. So, eversince I haven't been able to openly read the Qur'an and Islamic literature at home. I have to do it in secret, and I visit the masjid in secret. If my parents ever found out, they would seriously punish me...
Even so, I've been learning about Islam...and I am confused at times...Sometimes I want to revert (convert) completely...but I then want to know: WHY?-----I want to know why the Qur'an is untouched and perfect, and uncorrupted----
So, I've been trying to learn to pray, but I would have to pray like the prisoners used to pray. I would have to do it in secret and just do it looking down, and praying in my mind.
People say to declare the shahada, because I don't know when I'm going to die, and that's SO true, but I want to know why I am declaring this Shahada----Because I wouldn't want to revert/convert and then find something out about Islam that I do not agree with. Especially marriage---I do not want to marry in my life, but I was told it's obligatory...There's something pulling me back from declaring my faith---I want to, but it's not as simplistic as you do it, and then you change your mind and go back to nothingness...I believe Allah should be praised and worshipped because He made us, and He is the Only One who Knows All. He is the All-Knower, the All-Hearer, and All-Forgiving. Can someone please reassure me of Islam and convince me that the Qur'an has not be corrupted? That's really what I need in life...Thank you all for your time....Ma Al Salama