02-25-2004, 09:37 PM
Alsalam 'alaykom wa rahmat Allah wa barakatuh brothers and sisters, how are u all doing, I haven't been around for a long time I know, the reason was that I went to Haj Alhamdulilah and this is the first time I go, and I came back alhamdulilah by Allah's mercy, and I pray for all of u that have not gone insha'Allah u will go next year. I really wish I can go every year, it is really a vey devine journey, u forget yourself there u think of nothing else but not to make any misdeeds and all I was thinking that Allah almighty will forgive me and accept from me. The moment I reacehd Jeddah airport I really was shiverring and praying all the way in the plane, that all goes well and I complete my rituals with no mistakes, the weather in mekka was wonderful, it was not very cold nor very hot. Then we went by bus to the building we were to stay in and through the way we were saying
" Labayk Allahum Labayk, Labayk La shareek laka Labayk, in ilhamd wa ilni'mata laka walmulk la shareek lak"
Subhan Allah, really I was shiverring with fear till the end, but alhamdulilah everything went okay and I completed my rituals, and I hope Allah Almighty will accept from me.
Really the feeling is great we all are the same, there is is no poor, no rich all are one in the same line , all wearing the same, there is no way for anyone to be a show off all the same all one, all came asking for God's forgivness, millions were in Mekka, in the haram (alkaba') but still masha'Allah it is wide enough for all. When I saw the Kaba' I couldn't help but cry, tears would fall automatically, I pray to Allah that this will not be my last time, I wish I could go every year, I hope I can, and sobhan Allah we never get enough sleep maybe a couple of hours in 24 hours, but still we have the strength to complete all our rituals, especially when throwing stones at satan sobhan Allah when one throw he feels a different kind of strength and the stone flies strongly straight to target. I have many to say but I will not be boaring I will write more later and maybe u have questions to ask me brothers and sisters, but I can say that I feel now I am a new person, I have become more patient , more cautious in talking and treatment with people, more quiet, I am always afraid to make any misdeed or guilt, but deep inside I feel more pleassed more content and more closer to Allah. So those who have not gone please do your best to, have the intention in your heart and ask aid from Allah to help u to go to haj and beleive me he will, since last year's haj I had the intention and was always praying and asking God's aid to fulfill my trip and when ramadan was close I prayed more and more , and then everything happened very quickly alhamdulilah, and God accepted my dua'a and made everything easy for me.
well that is all for now, there will be more next time, I just dont want to bore u all:D . wasalam 'alaykom wa rahmat Allah wa barakatuh
