01-15-2004, 04:38 PM
Bismillah
As salam alaikum
I must say that I am not strong in my faith at all. Allah is Strong. The only thing that I hold dear to me is that I know when I ask Allah for His Help, He Gives it to me. I know this as a fact. He may not Answer me in the manner that I want but I always get an answer.
I found that I used to ask Allah for His Help but in my mind with the stipulation that He would Do as I wanted. This thinking is now ridiculous to me. If I am asking for Allah's Help, then I am in a situation where I am admitting that I do not know what I am doing, at the very least. Then I ask for Help but only in the way that I want? My way clearly does not work. I see how unhappy I am and how little knowledge I have. How could I possibly put stipulations on the Guidance of Allah?
Now I ask Allah for His Guidance with an open heart, willing to accept whatever His Judgement may be. Before my wife and I seperated, I prayed that she would be Guided. I prayed she would become a good muslim. Finally, I prayed that Allah would provide me with what was best for the relationship between Allah and me. I prayed for a wife who would assist me is growing closer to Allah. So far, the signs have been pointing to the fact that my wife is not this person. This is not what I wanted at first. But ultimately I want Allah's Will for me so I will be patient. Insha'Allah I will get rewarded, if not here then later when it really matters.
My only strength comes from my desire to do Allah's Will and the patience to carry it out when I percieve it.
May Allah Make us all strong in our iman and willing to carry out Allah's Will for us.
Allah Forgive me.
As salam alaikum wa rahmatullahi wa barakatu