01-13-2004, 04:36 PM
Asalaamu alikum,
I think it's a contract of war with Shaytan because it is also a contract of war with your ownself in that there is the struggle to overcome your weaknesses, bad habits, and be the better person by improving from our failures.
Also as a revert, when newer reverts than yourself come to Islam, they often look to those other reverts that have been at it longer for help, so we have to strive to educate ourselves not only for the betterment of ourselves and our families, but the betterment of the whole group insha Allah.
I was talking about this with another revert sister last night, and we talked about feeling so overwhelmed in the beginning and even now, being overwhelmed at times. We know a little more now, but feel as though we know nothing, maybe this is the way it always will be? Sometimes, we feel we aren't fufilling our duties as the needs here are very great and even education is a challenge.
Maybe you know that saying about "The only person you have to be better than is the one you are right now."
And it is the beginning of a journey, not the end. And like all journeys, there is the triumphs and set-backs. But even in the hard times, there is always happiness and gratitude to Allah swt, who guided us and made us Muslims.
Hope that's not off-topic.