10-27-2003, 03:28 AM
bismillah
As salam alaikum
Astaghfirullah if I am intruding on a forum that I should not. I clicked the new posts button and saw this topic and could not help but reply.
My mother died this past june after being paralyzed for two months due to complications from a ruptured anuerysm.
I miss her more than I thought I could miss her. I see her in my dreams. She tells me that she is not dead and that our lives can get back on track. These dreams are so real that upon waking I sometimes have to check with my brother to remember that she really is gone from this life.
Growing up, it was just my mother, brother and I in the house. She was everything for us. She worked long hours, two sometimes three jobs to put food on the table.
Looking back I can see all of the sacrafices that she made. My brother and I were all she had in her life that she loved and was proud of.
If you do not see all that your mother has given you, you will when she is gone. She will be one day. We all will be one day. The lives that Allah has granted us can seem so long sometimes, but when I really think about it our time is so short.
I do not have any deep regrets over my mother's death. Allah allowed us to say everything we needed to say to each other before the paralyzing surgery. I just miss telling her I love her. I miss hugging her and hearing her laugh. I miss her telling me how proud of me she is. I miss her comfort and advise. I thought I had many years ahead of me with my mother. I thought she would be able to hold her grandchildren that she wanted so much. Allah plans best and I submit. I love you all for letting me talk about my special lady who I miss, with a lump in my throat and tears filling my eyes.
May Allah accept our deeds during this holy month.
Jazakum Allah Khair
As salam alaikum wa rahmatullahi wa barakatu