My Journey Towards God.

[Faris_Mee]

I suppose that I cannot say that I am afraid of God. I have faith in his guidance and his intentions. I think there is no need to fear a God who WANTS you to succeed. It is difficult for me to hold on to both faith and fear at once.


What do you think? What is the 'Fear of God' to you?


namaste


Mahasvapna

For me 'Fear of God' is a question that can be divided into two parts. Before and after Islam. Before my conversion fear was a conventional concept that motivates or immobilizes people, the 'norm' so to speak. Fear of death, life, loss e.g. income, possessions, love and so on. I did experience several periods of intense fear on my journey to find God. However I do not wish to expose myself in public as to the phobias I experienced. Needless to say however they were highly motivating in that my 'sense-of-self' was put into perspective.


I continue to thank Allah (alhamdulillah) for my episodes of 'fear therapy'. I circled around, experiencing much but getting nowhere for all of seven years in my quest to find the secret of life; God. Don't get me wrong, I 'felt' Him during the trek but I wanted to find that 'pot of gold'.


I knew it was out there, and as long as I kept a watch out for rainbows, it'd turn up. And sure enough, but in a most unexpected way. In all those seven years I never encountered "Allah" or "Islam" or "Muhammad" until the last minute. Well five minutes actually. One day, finally, I was introduced to the 'internet' and a thing called a search engine. I was told that what ever question you had you could find the answer to anything inside this little black rectangle.


So that night I exitedly typed into the 'little black panel' my co-ordinents for God and pushed ENTER. To my surprise up came page after page after page of Islam and two links to "bible studies". "Islam?" I exclaimed to myself. What's that? I blindly clicked on a link for no particular reason and up came the Quran. First was a short prayer (I later learned it


was Sura Fatihah). Then the Qur'an commenced;


<i>"This is the Book, a guidance sure, for those who fear Allah, by guarding against evil." </i>


And that was it. Seven years of 'research' condensed down to a five minute trip on the net. "Ah-ha!" I exclaimed. "At last. Found You!"


So this takes us back to what you mentioned earlier;

I suppose that I cannot say that I am afraid of God. I have faith in his guidance and his intentions. I think there is no need to fear a God who WANTS you to succeed. It is difficult for me to hold on to both faith and fear at once.

The first sentence is your 'missing link'. The second is a 'blessing'. The third is a 'lack


of knowledge'. The fourth is the 'secret to salvation'.