Bismillah
as salam alykom
Jazakum Allah khairan katheeran Faris for this strong reminder.
But here we must also not forget to have hope in Allah for a believer's position must always be between hope and fear from Allah:
Alhamdulelah that Allah Say:
"Verily, <b>Allah forgives not that partners should be set up with him in worship</b>, but He forgives except that (anything else) to whom He pleases, and whoever sets up partners with Allah in worship, he has indeed invented a tremendous sin" (Quran 4:48)
And again jazakum Allah khairan for sharing your story with us here. If u can elaborate this would be great and may be post it on new Muslims