Bismillah
How are u Anya, I did not want to answer now, I was waiting for a while, but what u said about your imam frustrated me, he is wrong he should not do that. Can u please tell me what kind of Imam is he and where did he study and what is his nationality and what schools he has been to. This is the most important point Anya, when u want to learn your relegion u must know who is teaching u, and if he has a full knowledge or not. Not every Imam is a scholar, but every scholar is an Imam, becasue he lived all his life since a child learning Islam.
As Dan said if u want to learn mathematics u do not go to a whatever, was it a historian Dan [img]style_emoticons/default/huh.gif[/img] , anyways, also in Islam, u must go to a scholar. When u r sick do u go to an engineer, no u go to a doctor, and so is relegion. Some read a book or 2 a hadeeth or 2 and then they think they are the most knowledable scholars and that they can make fatwas and judge people as they please, this is so dangerous. Kindly provide me with the name of that imam in PM and all that u know about him, I will see if he is the one u can get trusted knowledge from.
And stop saying that u do not want to come back, and do not want to discuss and not lose us as friends, we will not hate u Anya, and we will not ban u, u think that after going deeper u found the truth, beleive me u did not even get near the shore of Islam, u do not know anything yet except a bit here and there, even we born muslims we are still learning and we are discovering every day new things about islam that we never knew. And all the issues that made u leave islam has answers, pm me about those too and I will try to provide them soon. And all will be provided from trusted scholars, and not from just an imam Anya.
Until then take care, and do come back friend, u will by will of Allah find what pleases u.
Salam