Disbelievers Can Not Become Muslims!

[honeycomb]

dear martini,


i'm so glad you're born muslim, but i'm sad you dropped the religion... i wonder why. honestly, when I was 16, i went through such phase myself. my life was very hard at that time, I was on the verge of asking, why Allah made this upon me, while i've been so nice & good. from then on i went lax in my prayers & fasts, rarely read the Quran... & spiralled to a meaningless life. i was the best student, yet i was hollow inside. even when everything's great, it's like there's something missing in my life.


so i thank Allah so much that He has Guided me back to Islam. I don't even know when exactly, maybe when I was 18, I had an accident. then I was stricken with starvation (i had no money to eat for weeks, i only had water until i feel like i was going to die). then miraculously, Allah sent me Help. in minutes! Allah just, <i>Kun Fayakun</i> & His Help is there! not really like Mary, though, of course Allah sent me people who feed me food. but it was the best, most memorable dinner I've ever had! I thank Allah so much...


then Allah sent me new, good, pious friends. <b>Che Diah</b> is one, who modelled me the muslim lifestyle I yearn for. at this phase of life, i'm now a little richer. so meeting the poor, village girl was an eye-opener! She has very less money than I do, but she's the one who always brings food & gifts to me. how amazing is that! she said she likes to give away things she loved herself, i used to think that's just stupid. but now i understand. she's right... i love her so much.


then Allah sent me to work at a Hajj Institution, where I was accepted & loved & shown the muslim way of life... Allah clearly showed me the way. after I spiralled to a world of doom, now I know how it feels like in both worlds. forgetting Allah, i'm such a loser -- hollow & meaningless. with Allah, there's this joy in my heart that's indescribable! <b>i don't know how to say it, it's like being happy for no reason, except the knowledge I have a God, that is Allah - my true <i>auliya</i>.</b>


now I truly believed, my life has been so blessed & destined. Allah has make it like that & showed me so much signs. If I don't heed the signs, what I fool I am...


Now, I'm turning a new leaf, sometimes I look at a revert & felt ashamed. She looks so much pious, why am I not like that, while I'm born-muslim. I don't know why I didn't read the Quran before. I used to feel, the religious books are so boring. But now they're jewels! The Guidance of Allah is so much more valuable than anything. i know it's cliche, but yes, it's true... every life's problems can be solved if only we follow Allah's Guidance. the Quran, the words would just make you cry. because it's so true... & because it's the answer, I've been looking for so long.


that's why I believe in Allah. it's this feeling & joy, I don't know how to tell you. even when people are rude, i remember Allah told us that <b>some of us are a test for some others</b>. there's so many great guidance, when we follow it, we will be in the safe & good life.


i thank Allah, so much. I hope you would too. & muslims say it all the time <b>In The Name of Allah, The Most Gracious, Most Merciful.</b> when we really believe in it, the joy is indescribable. just like Moez Masoud once said, i hope i'll maintain this way always. i'm not really that great myself, but i'm learning, step by step. Alhamdulillah...


"i really hope you will feel this feeling too... but if you don't i wont' stick swords into you" (quote from Abdus Salam).