10-15-2004, 09:41 PM
Assalamu aleikum sister Muslimah,
Hope Ramadaan is going well for you. The first day for me contained a lot of tears and emotions - this is the MONTH that the Qur'an first began to be revealed to our beloved Prophet Muhammad, SAWS and that is so OVERWELMING. What a gift He bestowed on us. Alhamdulillah that He wanted to give us His Guidance.
Now that I have written that, I don't really think that I can say so very much to our guest Ronniv, we have provided her with very much info. I doubt that my story would make things clearer. The conversionstories that can be read are touching and covers a lot of different angles of why people left what they believed in and how they have been guided to Islam as the final belief in life.
But a few lines I can share. I was in the state that I could not believe in the Christian belief due to that God is both himself and also someone else. NO WAY could a PERSON have created this Universe. That my common sense told me was abolute out of the question. And since the only 'available' faith at that time for me was Christianity, I could not follow it, so I lived without faith for decades. Until one day I did wake up. A woman asked me if I believed in God - what a question to ask I thought - I was almost speachless, and tried to answer her with yes, no and I don't know (astarghfirullah). Now this kind of answer is not acceptable at all of course, and I realised it when I had said it.
From that moment my 'search for God' started. And you like all the brothers and sisters know why I ended up a Muslim. I had to go back to find my fitrah that I lost so long ago. There was no other way. And I feel Allah, SWT, spared me all that 'faith-less' time to be involved in Christianity, He had chosen something better for me. When I was ready for it. When my heart had catched up and understood the truth, His truth.
Wasalam your sister