as salam alykom my dear brother who is tested on his first week of coming back to his Lord
Just rest assured we will never take any of what u say as disrespect. Brother, we live our lives to learn, some live their lives searching and never come to the truth. Alhamdulelah Allah Helped u take the most important step and u crossed the border safely. I am sure u r focusing on your prayer which I encourage again and again. If u want my opinion, which of course u r not obliged to take, focus on Quran, such sites are nothing but a waste of time. Alhamdulelah u realized there is Allah, they are defending their falsehood because people like u is a threat to them that is why ali came to the site. Any way, Insh aAllah u r not showing madness. Allah Is Testing u to see how will u stand, how will u compare with His presence in your life. Again and again, make prayer and ask Allah for Help and guidnce.
Now as long as u realized the Existence of Allah the Creator. Who else could have made us exist. Alhamdulelah u just reworded your question.
I am still waiting for more points.
REgarding english translation, I would suggest more, with respect to my brothers here:
www.qurancomplex.com
http://quran.nu/
Being a translator myself and Alhamdulelah native arabic speaker I highly recommend them both