09-11-2004, 09:09 PM
Assalamu aleikum brother Anyabwile,
You are now under a great test by Allah, SWT. But since you are a new Muslim, I DO recommend you to read the Qur'an first. Try to learn about Islam first. If you start with other issues now, or try to read about Islam from sources that are anti-Islamic it will be very troublesome for you. You must do this slow forwarding in your new faith step by step, and read only what is Islamic, what is HALAL to your eyes, ears, soul and mind. Go step by step brother, with CARE.
I agree that reading other sources too is of some value, BUT it comes in MUCH MUCH later. It took me years before I could do that, before I could handle it, inshaAllah, and the main thing to do this kind of reading is when ending up in discussions with non-Muslims, when doing daw'ah. When trying to forward the Message of Islam to them. BUT you must have a very solid ground to stand on before doing this.
This you have been reading is not even a very good one, it is TOO obvious what their aim is. I have seen sites much more 'clever' done. These kind of web-sites is done to create doubt in the true believers mind. To make them turn away from the true Message of Allah, SWT. It is nothing new. But TODAY it is much easier when most people has access to internet and anyone can create and start a homepage.
Please try to contact some Muslims where you live. If you have a mosque nearby, go there. I am sure they will welcome you and help you the best way they can. And stay on line here, there surely will always be somebody around.
It IS very difficult the first time as a new Muslim, you will need support. And try to pray as much as you can to Allah, SWT, that He will make you strong and firm against Shaytans whisperings. Let Him guide you slowly forward. InshaAllah.
For now, your sister in Islam