09-09-2004, 01:56 PM
Alhamdulillah....
Welcome aboard brother.....
although i'm born Muslim, i know how you feel since i was only a Muslim by name for 20 years of my life..... only few months ago that i came back to where my root is. i was a lost kid during my teenage years, knowing Islam only a little. although my father did taught me much about Islam when i was still a little child, after i was enrolled in a boarding school at 12 yrs old, i was drifted further from Allah.....after school it was pre-universiry, then now i'm in a university... so i didn't get much chance to learn from my father about Islam, since he knows and understand Islam the way it should be....
i know how it feels to leave something you love behind, like your music etc. it was hard, but Insha Allah... it can be done....
few months ago, when i was first realized that i was completely in the wrong way, i made a drastic move... i throw out all my black metal cassetes and cds, pornographis stuffes, poker cards etc...and a lot of other things....
i felt really hard at that time, especially about the cds and cassetes ( i don't really care about prono things anyway, but i really love music..)....
i went on a whole night on a sajadah, praying to Allah to help me through everything...i prayed to Him to show me the way... i started to pray again, plus qada' all my missed prayers for several years (till now i haven't finished doing the qada' yet, i hope i will finish before i die)....
Alhamdulillah...now i feel great. i know my parents would be happy to know that i'm a better person...Insha Allah... now i'm really looking forward into holiday breaks so that i can go back home and learn about Islam from my father, since i always admire his way of answering my every question...may Allah bless them both with His Love.....
brother anyabwile, it won't be easy, but it worth it... trust me...
i'll be praying for you brother, in my every prayer,Insha Allah.....