God Has Called Me...

[Anyabwile]

Ah thank you everyone, you're making it so much easier for me. There's a lot of sense in your words. And the warmness i've never felt before, only from my own family, and that's been rare! From people the other side of the world from me over the Internet, it's amazing people whom i dont know are like this. Thank Allah for all of you who respond, appreciated so much

for more than 10 years i am fighting with my family because of my life system (come home very late, sleep in the morning and wake up very late in the afternoon to prepare for my first show, alchol, drugs, and girls etc etc...) so this career is full of evil and i am sure that you are aware of that..

Yes... i've so many ways over the past few days tried to work out how i could do my music and serve god as he wishes and it doesn't seem to fit. I would have to surround myself with the right people for starters and in the music industry, as you know, theres some shady characters, people smoking, lots of girls hanging around...not an ideal start!! My only problem is that it's been all i've known, all i've put my energies into, stupid in a way. I never had nothing to fall back on, i hope Allah can guide me without this in the coming days. Since i've become muslim...really the first day i read a full feature on the science, i've ignored concerned emails already from people asking why i havent got back to them regarding something i was supposed to about my music, and as time goes on it's going to be impossible to avoid those people in the industry and friends who had invested so much money in my music, and belived in me. I was on the edge of launching my music, literally made new expensive website a few weeks back and all, and now...i've kind of stopped dead, and left everything. And i know of Cat Stevens, i think i remember at the time when he became Muslim, i thought he was one of them religious madmen...why give up all the money and fame...now it's so clear why he did.


There's many loose ends i need to tie up and let people know. They're not going to actually belive it, because music has been my life before, all i lived for. Perhaps that's why god spoke to me? It becomes clearer as time goes on, i didn't know why at first. I'm still so scared about telling people, honestly i am...still nearly a week no one knows, i know my girlfriend will suspect though, because i've been nicer to her than i've probably ever been in my life these past few days. Because God is watching, and this is what he wants. The marriage thing will be very tough though lol Like i said elsewhere, i'll handle that Lots of flowers and sweet talking.

I am so happy for you. I am also happy for me that Allah let me be a muslim so I can experience events like these and understand the jubilation that we go through when Allah Guides us. I remember 'seeing' for the first time after I converted as well. It is like reality has actually decended. The previous life and beliefs seem like a weird dream. Once the scales fall from our eyes, how can we ever go back to thinking in the old manner?

So so true, it's the most unexplainable feeling isn't it. There was a point near the start of me accepting Islam...when i was just overwhelmed with feeling, and i didnt know why. It was so strong, so so so strong just this feeling. I wasn't like i'd read about Islam for years and then got this feeling, i'd only read about it one day...and the science pulled me...this was ONE DAY! Then i got the warm feeling all through my torso one morning, and i've been reading more on Islam over the past week than anything i've ever read on. It seemed FACT that god existed in front of me.


So everything changed in such a short, sharp space of time, sometimes i would cry, like stunned by this, it's been like that the past few days to be honest. In my first post i was unsure as to why i had been called, but as time goes on it makes more sense, perhaps it was god guidng me from the evils of this career. Which would have involved loads of touring away from my girlfriend(soon to be wife) and young daughter, sexual temptations drink, drugs etc, even though i've never done either.


I'm not sure why i was called but i feel lucky to see the world how it truly is, in fact, theres a definite feeling inside me that i know 100% without doubt God has made this world, the fact it's been all around me for twenty five years makes me feel more like a fool! And as you described it Dan, is exactly how i feel. And thanks for the offer in my first post to PM you with Questions i may not want to ask in the future. I do have some, which will come your way soon, thanks...


I hope Allah guides all new muslims in my position who can get to them, to this forum, or forums with muslims as kind as the ones here. It's made my transition so much easier. Still got to handle family and friends yet anyone want to handle them all for me?????