God Has Called Me...

[Anyabwile]

Peace Anyabwile
Alhamdulelah I am sure u will start feeling among a family, O I still didnt get a bunch of questions, shoot man shoot we are waiting all. Go ahead work us out we need to be kicked to work

Thank you hahaha the questions are coming, i'm currently reading the truly excellent thread here http://www.islamsms.com/bb/index.php?s...opic=1559&st=90 it's taking all of my morning up but i can't stop reading it. I've noted down many questions i have and good points i want to review. However it seems simple and plain fact to me now, that we have the words of god in front of us. Which is still in a way unbelivable and still a massive thing for me to accept, that in a physical form the Quran...god speaks. Yet the signs tell me without a doubt he does. This made me cry like a baby yesterday and im a big strong dude who doesnt do that It's just powerful and scary to have it confirmed god exists. I've instantly started acting different because i know he watches. This difference has made me a calmer person, and much happier already.


I used to hold very strong Black Activist views, and although i still feel the same as i want justice for my people, the venom and aggresive feeling i have toward other races has, gone, just gone. For me (malcolm x pictures etc on the wall) thats a very powerful thing to happen. In less than three days, i've changed since i felt Allah. The anger i feel toward white racists how i used to feel, is now replaced with almost sorrow for them. Because i know how Allah views those who have done what they did to my people. I feel sorry for them and hope they can embrace Islam.


Anyway once i have trawled through the forums, i will make a post with my questions very soon, where would be best to do this as a new Muslim? which forum? or should i post the questions here in this thread now. Bear in mind i now know the Quran is the word of God this was shown to me first through Science and fact that god presented to us in the Quran, and now as time goes on, his love his words and his compassion for us, words which have suprised me, the love. You always get the impression, well i did before i embraced Islam that Allah was this very scary horrible god (yes a seperate god) that will send us all to hell and almost despises puny humans. I don't mean to offend, thats whats prsented to western eyes like mine. But it's the exact opposite, Allah wants us to go to paradise, thats why he tells us how to get there and how to live our lives, then if he is willing, we will enter. He's actually helping us, so eveyone who can must get that call i imagine, it's just their choice. I got mine so recently i cant belive how i feel, i'd expect to feel like this after say 10 years of studying Islam, but after a few days? That's too powerful to ignore.


I will also pronounce Shahada tonight, and learn what i need to do from then to please and serve God from then forth. In less than i'd say three days i've changed from non beliver to beliver..it was the Science, then his words, then immense belief and realization. I just need questions answered because i seek knowledge and i'm still a baby to this, who hasn't read the Quran, only selected sections.


Then of course i have to announce this to my loved ones who simply won't belive me i think. I don't belive how i feel and how strong it has felt, to feel this pull but it's happening and i see now why Islam is so powerful. I'm still proper nervous about telling everyone, and saying goodbye to my career. I owe so many people so much for helping me progress in my career in music, but it just seems so pointless now. I'm not interested in what i used to do, especially my words.


Anyway i'm er..going off on one again...i will be back with my questions in a day or so, probably tonight. Thank you for the welcome, i've been to three Islam forums and this is the only one that has embraced me, maybe god guided me here for my knowledge? I don't know, but i will try to answer as many as i can myself by searching these forums first, then i will present my first (of millions) to you all. Thanks for speaking with me!!! and putting up with my endless text!!