01-15-2004, 12:19 AM
salam. I'm realy sad. I'm thinking of some muslims who has ruinedme. I'm talked some of them, but I was much sad. Since so long years I suffer of some deal against me, now i shld pretend and I should go topsychatrist. It is sad or shame for this person? The reason is still they of my suffer and give me advice to go psychatrist. Its like this, when I shoot with a (gun) weapon a person and say you have to go doctor.
This world is still boored.
I think if I were in at shabaees, maybe i was not so.
Or if Allah swt decided that I study islam it would not so with me.
I were not at this chatroom with these muslims. I cant belive also now, when I read how should muslims handle with eachother, in quran or hadiths. I cant hate them they are my brothers and sisters but I have this pain in my hearth and will this pain take until Judgemend day.
When I had different start in this life maybe it would be not so.
I try to get why this all happen. I know some of you will say that all is test but this answer is known for me. But i dont know, it is only for me.
If I have rest of my life, I will write my whole story, my thougts, my true and honest thougts and what I have got as price all of these good thoughts from my brothers and sisters..
wassalam.good by..
PS: I would not come in but I would share , I M realy sad these days..